i'm not perfect

28 dec 08

2008-12-28T23:58:00.002+08:00

Yo Yo Yo!...lols merry xmas everyone...i damn long nver blog le...well maybe juz a couple of months...but still damn long...lols...my xmas was kinda ruined but the psl camp...haha...never really sleep during Christmas..juz keep on think bout stuff n more stuff..well that's me...always thinking...haha..anyways i didn't really regreted going for the PSL camp...lol since when do i start regreting stuff...haha =P...anyways it's was really fun larh...i get to act as kopitiam UNCLE! For campfire night...=X.. damn gay larh...pull pants high high then ask people go corner draw circles...^^...but during this camp kinda learnt alot also...like how to depend on your friend...cause i realised that sometimes i been keep things to myself...well kinda alot things actually...but well...everyone has to have their own personal secrets marh...think i want to get back on blogging...=X...i'm kinda bad at this thing but...well is kinda oso a diary for me to reflect larhs...so feel free to comment lorhs xD...O yea...MERRY CHRISTMAS!

9 nov o8

2008-11-09T20:44:00.002+08:00

heys...damn damn damn long nver blog le...haha...no feel larh...my life like nth to blog about leh...boring..haha...anywae today suddenly blog cuz i nth do...lols...n cuz SOME PPL wan me update..lols...having a dead blog kinda cool oso larh...get to read bout de past...brings bck some memories...=P...no matter is happy or sad larh...but depends on hw u look at it oso =D...today...finally got confirmed...YAY...grats to all those hu get comfirmed today too...especially my bros...JeromeZ...ben..anselm thomas... great fwens xD...jiayou every1...have to spread de word of God to ppl...lols...i tink will blog again..soon...but not very often barh..haha...i oso duno if any1 reads...so HAHA =X

15 oct o8

2008-10-15T20:52:00.002+08:00

heys...today kinda boring larh...when u have no goals in life...u juz lead a life which is like a bit meaningless oso larh..weird but to me is wat's happen...i finally brought myself together n like kinda decided to gif up...well at least she'll be happier wif de other guy rite?...she has her reason...so i dont wan to be a light bulb...i noe hard work will pay of 1 day or another...so maybe nxt time barh...i'm not important nw oso...hope God will lead a way for me

13 oct o8

2008-10-13T22:08:00.002+08:00

heys...srry very very very long nver go blog le..13 days sia...nearly 2 wks...well finish exams n skool very boring oso...nth to do...i nver really studied oso...wont be surprise if i failed anyting...anywae...my life sucks larh seriously...today is kinda a day whr everything goes wrg...rejected...ermm wat else...lost my temper...ermmm...ahrh alot crap happened larh...so yea...suddenly life feel so meaningless to me...to tell u the truth i juz living a life dat passes thrgh me..pathetic i noe...well wat can u ask frm a dickhead like me...well nth...i'm so like confused nw...i want to drink again...maybe dat will help...so dat i dont need to think of anything n slp well...lols...i really wish for somthing to chge in my life...i mean for de better larh...haiz...worst of all...i'm still waiting 4 her...haiz...

o1 oct o8

2008-10-01T22:31:00.002+08:00

heys...long time nver blog le...today children's day...well oso a public holi..damn sian at home...but at least i got go out to study...=P lol...weird larh...anywaes srry i did blog much de last few days..cuz i dont really wan to tok about my sucky life...totally crap larh can?...she say she 4gif me le...long story...i shout at her de other day...sad larh...really pissed de other time...i really hope she forgive me...tis few days very moodless oso..tmr exams again...SS n A maths...dont think i have confidence in both of these subs...haiz...worst of all is i still thinking of her!!!..ahrh...my life really sucks...

24 sept o8

2008-09-24T17:40:00.002+08:00

heys...srry very long nver blog...had diarhhoea 4 de past few days nver went skool...nw feeling well sick?...duno larh...i seldom sick de but when sick dat time is called GG...anywaes i realised smth ytd...23 marh...well gt choir ytd...not bad larh...first time i went into a studio xD...so cool larh!...but bad thing is i keep singing out of tune..i think our voices cant suit de guitars...de worst thing bout ytd is i gei kiang be hero...pay extra...in de end ppl play 6 dollar i pay until 18 dollar...nvm larh...best part bout ytd...she let me walk her home n she pei me 4 dinner...so nice rite! xD...haha...i duno larh...i think i crazy le lor...i nver wait 4 any1 tis long b4...really lor...if go count is like 4 months liao...siao rite?...haiz...maybe i'm getting my hopes too high...dont think she'll every acpt me again...no matter hw much i try to gif in to her...my temper always get in the way...haiz...i really duno...

20 sept o8

2008-09-20T00:09:00.002+08:00

heys...srry didn't really blog much tis few days...no mood to use my com...juz care about playing basketball...bcuz tis wk really sucks...like damn unlucky larh...den keep on having ppl showing me attitude..haiz...sometimes i do thing wifout thing well dat i understand if u scold me...but wat if i did something wif my brain...u going to scold me for dat too?...i really dont understand...being nice oso wrg...i dont like to lose my temper really...i dont wan any1 to see the bad side of me anymore...but i think it's coming out soon...seriously...when dat day comes i gona be alone again

15 sept o8

2008-09-15T22:38:00.002+08:00

heys...i was kinda looking forward to today actually...but kinda ruined it again by some1...but nvm i dont wan blame any1 nw...i dont wan end up quarreling over stupid things again...anywae...as usual i walked her to skool...den like ask her whether she's going 4 today's choir prac den she say she wan study...in de end after begging her to go...she still rejected going in de end...kinda wasted my saliva =X...jkjk...den later i duno y started emo-ing... i really enjoy singing in choir...u noe when u sing wif other ppl...dere is a very nice feeling...plus u're singing wif and 4 God...it takes my probs away...well kinda larh...takes my mind of de topic for awhile...in de end prac was screwed up bcuz no1 wans to go...totally fcuked up larh...always like dat de lor...de later becomes bryan fault in de end...duno hw de problems find a way to me...haiz...nvm larh...nw over oso over le wat to do...sit dwn n cry?..think not...dat's too weird...juz looking forward to walking her tmr n sing again...maybe dat will cheer me up...but there's another prob...gt project muz finish n i got YCS!...damn

14 sept o8

2008-09-14T20:39:00.002+08:00

lols...bloging again today...well maybe cuz i blog ytd at round 1 plus..haha...anywae today kinda had a great time...=P...woke up really early today..round 7 cuz i needed to go church...den served de 8 30 mass...kinda screwed alot of things during de mass...den after dat went to stall to help...gt ppl frm 3 unity come..den lucky 4 me i dont really need to run my stall xD...=P...den best of all gt get to spent time her xD...gd rite?..well lucky me...again...but i duno whether wan get her bck...she lyk will nver acpt me again...i damn sad larh...i hope she still noes i'm waiting...n still waiting...

14 sept o8

2008-09-14T00:14:00.002+08:00

heys...blogging quite late today...well maybe rather early le...anywaes...today is my sis birthday wonder wat is shld get 4 her...dont really feel like but i think i find smth tmr in de fun fair...i duno y still nver go slp tmr need wake up damn early...but juz dont feel like slping...maybe thinking too much again...today jie tell me to move on again...i cant really get her off my mind...sound crazy or either dat i'm crazy...i duno wat say oso larh...i duno y wan her bck...but is de feeling dat keeps on coming n going..haiz...shit larh...my life sucks..everything sucks...still very very sad...haiz...

10 sept o8

2008-09-10T22:08:00.002+08:00

heys...today super suay larh...shld nt have go play basketball...gt feeling larh today but very very very very suay...went dwn for basketball but no ball...gt tis small boy bring boy...den he go home dat time...he lost his fone...but luckily for him he found his fone...after dat we were left with no ball den keep calling n finding ppl so to get a basketball...den when we got it we went bck upper play...den play until i gt hit by jun ler at de muscle above de knee...damn pain...den after dat i hit until zac de side stomach dere...fcuk sia...i nt purposely de...after dat when going home zac cannot find his wallet..den go find cannot find until went on wild goose chase...den went for police report...juz got home...haiz...i nth say...juz feel helpless dat i find until de wallet...m my leg very pain n tired...o yea in afternoon waste another 1 hr at detention cuz got duty...haiz..at least get to walk her to skool...but i late for my morning duty =P...

o7sept o8

2008-09-07T21:17:00.002+08:00

heys...very long blog again...really like nth blog about lor...my life nw is like damn sucky larh...everytime i have to put on a face to pretend i'm okay...but seriously deep dwn...is nt...really...i say i wan gif up...but i keep thinking...i say i wan chge...but i'm still de same...well i wan to chge...i dont wan to think bout her anymore...after so long i cant really gif up...every morning...wake up den starting thinking bout the past...i duno sia...i tried....my heart is juz scattered on de floor...i need some1 to help pick it up...n i fix it bck together again

o4 sept o8

2008-09-04T08:47:00.002+08:00

heys...xD...i juz woke up...had tis weird dream larh...which kinda gif me inspiration n courage to gif up...well dat's wat i'm gona to do nw...anywae imagine we're all books..first look on the outside...den u read de inside...well she kinda read me alrdy...not really read thrgh everything...but maybe onli de first few pages...dat's y i wanted to show her more...i wanted to show her wat i can do...but nvm...false hope i guess...den wat if the old book was stack under new books...will u read de old ones or the new ones...of cuz the new ones rite?...it's kinda like human nature...i wont blame her for going to other guys...i oso wont blame her for ignoring me...there maybe hundreds of boooks on this old book...hu bothers to look for this lame book?...i dont really noe wat i'm saying oso...but i think it kinda makes sense to me dat i muz move on...even if my heart tells me not to...

o1 sept o8

2008-09-01T22:34:00.002+08:00

heys...today was 'force' to go church again....being too holy le...go so many church own church nver go...haha =P...anywae went to Zac's church today..got some bite race thing...smth like amazing food race...juz need to find n go dat place...reach le juz eat lor...spam my father today...all de places duno hw go..den call him...my walking street directory...xD...eat gd food today...bt not full larh...eat de salted soybean...very nice...muz try!!!...den eat wanton mee kuay chap n chocolate mushmallows...nt bad...xD...but very tiring...after dat went play basketball awhile...lost form le...den go zac hse play majong n com...nw juz come bck...come bck nver eat kena scolded nver tell ppl...which i got tell larh...so nvm den plus late come bck...complain somemore...screwed up larh...nt dat i go out do bad things larh...but holis leh...go fwens hse nver over nite very gd liao lor...haiz...duno wat my parents thinking...care too much???....maybe i'm a problematic child...sad case larh...but dont really blame dem for scolding me oso ...is juz dat de path i took issit the one for me... everything juz goes upside dwn...fwens...gf...family...skool...juz have to a brave smiling face on my face...i dont like to be sad infront of others...but sometimes i cant help it...haiz...either way...i'm kinda gd for nth oso..

31 august o8

2008-08-31T21:17:00.002+08:00

heys...srry didn't really blog still few days..fri went bck pri skool...kinda cool lor...meet up wif old pals n best of all i dunked...wootZ!!!...the ring too short barh...den ytd went to SJI to help out wif de teacher's day mass...oso saw quite de number of ppl i noe...den today...woke up feeling sick...very uncomfortable...but still went to veron n shiqi's church...weird...duno y i go oso..but didn't turned out as bad larh..but i had alot of questions nw... anywaes u noe wat??...I CRIED!omg larh...but de pastor said smth dat kinda touched me...well alot...he said dat during de si chuan earthquake a mother saved her baby but didn't die... i realise dat well fwens will be dere for u always...but u oso have to be dere for dem...xD...tis wk no chance walk wif her...but doesn't really matter to her oso barh...haha

28 august o8

2008-08-28T22:12:00.002+08:00

heys...today is abit sian lor...no mood study cuz kinda like de last day of skool...walked to skool alone today cuz it rained...sad larh didn't manage to walk her to skool...stupid rain...well woked up later den usual cuz i went bck slp again...skool okay larh...very slacky n boring...after skool went KFC n slack again...keep shooting ppl damn funi...laugh until damn full...went home slp till 5 plus den went play basketball...stupid Zac ps me...as me come dwn den dont wan play...den i going home den ask me play...zzz..no mood le...kena hit at my knee dere...i scared cramp dont dare play...very long nver cramp le dont like de feeling oso...going to slp nw need to wake up early tmr...hope to walk her to skool tmr...last day b4 holis oso...duno larh...still thinking n hoping to get her bck...crazy lor...i wan to try again...but sometimes wat u wan is not easy to get...so juz wait lor...really crazy le...

27 august o8

2008-08-27T21:25:00.002+08:00

heys...srry didn't blog de last few days...kinda nth to blog about...my life pretty boring...wanted go play basketball but rain so went feng yuan hse today...anywae today i think is 1 of de most fanastic LCE in the yr...we bought cake to celebrate an early teacher's day...wasn't really a surprise to the teachers but what the heck..we had fun...Mr shahrom unforunately had to endure our cake into face routine...haha...guess wat...he had 4 cakes smash into his face...not bad huh?...well is gd to have a teacher which doesn't really care...de moral of the story is...we bonded the class...woootZ...it's all according to plan...=)

24 august o8

2008-08-24T22:07:00.002+08:00

heys...today been quite slack but kinda occupied oso...anywaes 1 yr pass by so quickly... accident do happen rite?...but it seems like ytd dat he was toking to me bout his life...well i had many happy memories wif him...as a fwen...and as his "bro"..but sometimes i cant really help to tink about hw our life is like so fragile...like today i fall dwn...(duno hw i fall)..damn painful...imagine wat gabriel went thrgh...no offence...today oso wanted to go Jerome's hse..but due to the rain..kinda camped at home de whole day...sian...tmr got skool again but at least get to walk =P...

23 august o8

2008-08-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

heys...juz came bck frm church..kinda tired...today is like damn sian lor...lols...today supose to be the third month...but bcuz of me n my big mouth..haha...sad larh...still thinking after 3 wks...worst still..today went for the youth grp n did de sharing dere n stuff...tok bout anger management...frm sm1 like me dat cannot control my temper...weird...

21 august o8

2008-08-21T21:43:00.002+08:00

heys...got announce need to make for tmr...those who free go chapel at round 7...we will be praying for Gabriel Goh...today went to east coast for excursion...damn slack larh...went den feel the wind n EMO!...wootZ...kinda relaxing dere...den went bck skool at round 6 den ate aijsen... pok liao larh...no money buy a new pair of specs...den i went play basketball... stupid lor i no night vision...damn hard play...keep on over estimating...haiz...den today i flew...haha...dat guy bang me den i was like waaaaa...but heng nver fall dwn...have to train harder... still very weak...n worst of all my finger haven recover!...tmr have to wake up extra early to walk her to skool...lols...dont think i stand a chance anymore...

20 august o8

2008-08-20T21:01:00.002+08:00

yoZ...haiz...today super tiring sia duno why...but oso like quite slack lor...my body was exhausted bcuz of ytd..lols...anywae today kinda limped to walk her to skool...sian duno hw i injured myself again...today hit until my finger den like dont dare score today...my finger pain canot shoot properly sian lor...nw swollen...haiz very long le...still haven recover...u noe wat de worst thing of all today??...i spent the whole afternoon thinking of her n sleeping...wtf rite?...siao liao larh i scared i get depression

19 august o8

2008-08-19T20:36:00.002+08:00

heys...today kinda depressing larh...walked her to skool today...well am i doing de right thing?...i scared he being a light bulb between her n her bf...anywaes today pe kns...ytd rain today rain again...nver really do much...well practically no time after taking de height n weight...den went bck class oso no mood study...zzzzz...sry mr shahrom...i dont really understand my mind is blank and confused tis few days...den after recess kinda slack...den after lit went out skool eat at Joe's corner wif ronald joshua fengyuan n mr shahrom...haha...well best teacher ever!....to me larh...he's de closest teacher...waaaa last period worst check results... #$%@! i fail 3 subs i think is like OMG larhs....i dont really wan retain tis yr...gona make myself study hard...=P...at least i'll try...promise!...den after skool went ycs n played basketball...best part of all i first time dance today =P...well i cant dance oso larh...but at least i tried...=X...no talent...went play basketball again at upper...specs broke...sian no money buy new one...spent all my savings le..damnit...den kena elbowed alot of ppl today...(srry guys...didn't really mean it...hope u understand =X)...juz got home...i think going slack awhile den go slp my leg going to cramp soon...haha...

17 august o8

2008-08-17T22:39:00.002+08:00

heys...today damn boring sia...really boring...camp at home frm afternoon till nite..onli went to play basketball in de morning...plus i late for training...in de end no training larh cuz jun ler jio so many ppl come...haha we onli have 3 ppl hw trainin oso...den juz play match lor today...de sun so hot...take away stamina sia...mabe it's juz a trick in de mind...but very tired tis morning cuz ytd nite very late slp...haha...still keep thinking sia...haiz cant get it off my mind..kay i going slp le...blog tmr if i have de time

15 august o8

2008-08-15T18:17:00.003+08:00

heys...today duno larh...kinda passed by quickly...lost the reason to be happy oso marh...falling sick soon...morning walked her to skool again...i duno whether i'ts helping or not...haha..but maybe it's giving me false home...haiz...i wan to try again...i alrdy lost so many things...tried so hard... den in de end i'm left wif something...tears...don't really have to chance to say anything oso...things happen so quickly and i cant change things... over means over le rite?... hu am to decide the present, and the future...i have to no say...but the past...all i can say is i given my best...and maybe i do get angry at myself for being so useless...but i nver regreted going after her...well 2 months...well maybe it's juz 2 wks actually dat i was given a chance to do anything...but i duno hw appreciate barh...u oso nver gif me ur 100%...haha so nvm larh...dont blame u oso... juz treat me as a crazy bystander barh...i tried so hard... but in the end it doesn't even matter...the person hu tries the hardest falls the fastest...and cries the hardest...smile and look away barh...=)....maybe i wait till the day dat u can really acpt me again...

14 august o8

2008-08-14T18:27:00.002+08:00

heys...today is de worst of all..everything is kinda fcuked up really...well maybe i shld say bout wat happen ytd nite...well i keep thinking bout stuff...came home late n kena scolded by my mom...well...i nver say anything juz get scolded...den morning kena scolded again...lyk wtf can...kinda stomped out of de hse after eat my brkfast...went fetch winnie n went to skool...after going chapel samuel say amelia nver come..den i was lyk fuck larh...so i went tell winnie...she was like u all always like dat...came skool for nth...wat dat supose to me...it got nth to do wif me...i was juz supose to tell every1 got prac can?...but amelia nver comfirm wif me de songs...n i scared it turn out like today...but in de end still kena blame...wth larh...u say u nver gif me attitude u sure marh???... u wan to like read ur msg again???.... y i have to be de 1 saying srry???...is so unfair can??...cry den win liao lor... i always turn out to be the bad guy in ur eyes...=)

13 august o8

2008-08-13T19:08:00.002+08:00

heys...today kinda screwed up again larh...but kinda worst den ytd oso...i really lost all my feelings n kinda damn pissed nw...bcuz of some1 special...HAHAHAH!...i crazy le...did everything for nth...felt everything dat was fake...wat i believe n dreamed of is all FAKE!...i living in self denial nw...haiZ...i tried so hard... wat do i get in return????....nth much barh...well i really feel like crying...but i kinda cried till my eyes r dried...lols...heart numb n confused...wat shld i do???...haiz...i'm still...haiz nvm...

12 august o8

2008-08-12T20:12:00.001+08:00

yo!...sian lor...trying to make myself happy again...had a screwed up day...kinda wasted it oso...dont really feel like toking bout it...only make me angry...anywae happy birthday to Jia Qing n Bernice... srry ahrh...kinda forgotten...=P....blog tmr...super sian today so nth to blog about...

11 august o8

2008-08-11T19:27:00.002+08:00

heys...today kinda passed by super quickly...woke up round 7 30 cuz spiderman ask me play basketball..in de end i went bck slp 9 den wake up...went dwn n played till 11 plus...come up n bathe..den meet up wif Ting Wei and her stead...we went to plaza Singapura round 12...on de way meet nigel...kinda got shocked oso...haha...we bought i tickets den met Pei Rong and Crystal and had lunch together...haha...i eat until forget c time...when we went into the cinema kinda late 5~7 mins le...anywae we watch money not engh...very nice show seriously...SHLD NOT MISS...haha i cried during the show...=P...very long nver cry like dat haha...anywae i realise something from the show...sometimes when we do things to make ppl happy...but they do not notice it...and when they finally find out about the effort we put in...it's kinda too late...it's always like dat de...o yea...we played the basketball thing at de arcade...den crystal shoot the ball den de ball rebound hit her head...damn funi...=X...juz got home i going to eat my dinner...blog tmr if i have the time...

10 august o8

2008-08-10T23:12:00.002+08:00

heys...wonder y i always blog at nite...lols...anywae today woke up damn early juz to pei jerome to go to OLPS...well funfair dere..so kinda pon train...(srry guys)...cant help it...1 wk no basketball wootZ!...finally did it...lols...cuz i didnt wan to lose my temper...tis few days very easy get angry due to de lack of slp i'm having...siao liao larh...having depresssion?...lols cant be barh...anywae jerome's mei damn gd larh...gave him 15 dollar...she think money drop from sky ahrh?...jkjk no offence ...anywae like wonder hu be so nice to spend so much money on sm1...wow...maybe ppl tis day are nice like me =P....going to slp le...tmr going play basketball after brking my record...lols...haiz...still cant get her off my mind

o9 august o8

2008-08-09T17:44:00.002+08:00

heys...lols i duno y juz feel like bloging again...nth to do marh..my hero final 150..xD...quite long ahrh...ppl all faster den me..=P...anywae today's national day... we wanted to go c wei min but turns out he cant.. got to prepare for smth..so maybe we go nxt wk barh...kinda tired today but cant really slp...cuz like keep thinking about stuff again...becoming a bad habit le...everytime if i think too much i cant slp...but at least i realise i nver quarrelled wif my parents for quite a long time...so i think i good too...haha...my temper n perseverance lvl chge barh...haha...today msg her bout some stuff..well she say she wont acpt me...shld i wait or not??...i duno y she can acpt me...i'm not gd engh?lols...maybe...maybe not...dat is for her to decide barh...i have no say bout tis relationship wif her...lols..i cant really decide anything wif her oso...nvm larh...she hapy can le..i juz wait in silence...u dont need to be wif de person to love the person...so well...all the best to me...o yea...HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!wootZ looking forward to the fireworks tonite...

o4 august o8

2008-08-04T21:13:00.002+08:00

heys!...lols kinda happy today..morning woke up earlier den usual..lols juz to walk wif her to skool =P...cool rite?..jk larh doesn't mean anything to her( i think) ...maybe..maybe not...anywae juz walk for fun lor...den veron suddenly pop up n ask me whether hu going to ...i was like scared until larh...haha...anywaes..she wrote me a letter...bout stuff..n yea i understand a little but..nevertheless i was still confuse...muz be kidding rite?...lols for so long still confused...dumb or stupid?!...maybe shld write smth bck..haha...maybe weds barh today no inspiration...after school we went to see wei min...haha after we da bao our lunch...kinda weird ahrh...3 ppl sitting at de lobby eating...den we DISCOVERED echo...cool rite?..haha...i crazy le larh..dont even noe wat i'm typing...maybe juz trying to make myself feel happy again...juz hope she is too..smiles...

o3 august o8

2008-08-03T22:59:00.002+08:00

heys...dont feel like bloging to day cuz kinda nth to tok about...travelled around hougang to try to look for a basketball court...lower and upper both got event...so can say we suay barh have training when dey have things dere...well we to de basketball court near hougang cc..( de market dere)...haiz today jump damn low..duno y oso..haha no motivation le...xD...jkjk...well i promise myself dat i'll be the best...so i'm trying to work my way to de top...well i hope i got confidence too...den after training me n jun ler went LAN...play wif desmond dey all....super suay lor...today play wat lose wat...haiz...my dota become like so noob...(or maybe cuz i was noob in de first place =P)...nvm..slowly barh...i'll improve myself 1 step at de time xD...well at least i'm trying ^^...i hope it'll work out 1 day...today nver emo as much as de last few days...maybe cuz my body was kinda exhausted...i'm turning in le...i'll be visiting wei min tmr...blog tmr =)

broken on inside...u can't tell the difference...bcuz it's okay on the outside

1 august o8

2008-08-01T20:50:00.002+08:00

heys...today's been quite fun...ermmm...walk to skool wif her...i duno wat's de pnt oso...nver tok oso..den went for choir...haha...kinda sing my heart out...bo bian larh...my heart in pieces nw...need time to work on de puzzle if fix my heart n my life back together...then lesson were damn slack today...nver really did much...den we went to c Wei Min...he juz finished his op ytd..he's recovering soon...so yea...had a lot of fun talking wif Shiqi n Veron...haha...hope Wei Min had fun too...we went after skool...bought muffins for him but turns out he cant eat =P...den we wanted to eat n tok den in the end scared he jealous =X...den we went lobby it...well guess wat...our imagination went wild...kinda wanted to get injured to stay wif Wei Min...seems weird...=P haha...hope he gets better...well at least i think i'll help him when he needs me...=X

to someone:
maybe it wasn't meant to be...but i hope u realised i tried...

2008-07-30T21:54:00.002+08:00

i really dont feel like bloging today...did i disappoint her so much?..maybe i shld ask myself tis fucking question...wat am i good for?...making ppl angry and sad?...shld i bother?...i tried man...seriously...y cant she tell?..when i'm concern about her feelings she complains dat i very irritating..den wat's is de use of caring for u?...wat's the fucking use!...i'm a burden rite?...did other boys care or try so hard as me?!...2 mths man..wat i get bck in return?...nth but tears...

28 july o8

2008-07-28T20:51:00.002+08:00

heys...today has been a boring day..haha..kinda sick today...my nose keep on kena blocked =P...keep think bout stuff...cannot even do anything too..really miss de times we had...i oso kinda lost my confidence in de things i do...i onli can force myself to be happy when inside i'm kinda broken...at least i had fun playing basketball...desmond, jia wei n kah kee..srry if spell wrg...n thx to Teen gen...jiayous...work hard n train hard...i hope i being a good captain too...have to thank zac for being there for me too...=)

i want be the person who can make u happy...who is always there for u

27 july o8

2008-07-27T21:20:00.002+08:00

heys...wat happen to me again?...y always like dat? quarrel have any use meh? will solve anything?...i really think i'm stressing her out...she cares so much about me n yet i did really realise...am i blind or wat?...zzz...sian lor...dont think i'll be able to slp tonite again...wat shld i do nw?i wan support her but nw i dont think she will trust me le..

i'm srry

26 july o8

2008-07-26T12:38:00.003+08:00

it's de second time i'm bloggin today...i'm feeling so useless nw...i tried...i failed..i cried..in my mind it's all about u...how to make u happy...how to make u smile...how to spend more time wif u...when u said i'm irritating...i try to chge...didn't i?...when u said u're disappointed...i'm dere for u...i tried...really i gave my all...i noe tears cant chge anything...i noe u wont come bck to me...i hurt u too much...maybe if i didn't noe u it might be better..maybe if i wasn't here in de first place u wonld'nt suffer so much....y am i so weak?...i dont even understand hw u feel...wat am i good for?...when i try to talk to u...in de end i always have to find a topic..is getting some1 hu love me so hard?...i duno y i tried so hard...maybe cause u mean so much to me...dat i didn't let go..i noe i'm selfish...i'm holding u bck...i'm really srry...maybe i shld juz disappear...den u wonldnt suffer...

by wed...if u're ans is going to be a no...i promise i'll leave u alone...i promise i wont hurt u anymore...u wont have to blame urself too =)...all i wan is for u to be happy...so juz promise me this kay...i really <3 you...from de bottom of my heart...

26 july o8

2008-07-26T08:58:00.002+08:00

juz woke up after rolling n crying all night..i really duno hw to feel nw...i wan her to be happy...she means everything to me...but i wan to be happy too right?..i keep thinking of her...trying to find ways to make her happy...but i can't...what is a chance for?...didn't i gif it my best?..didnt i do everything i can?...i really wan to cry..i'm so confused..my heart is telling me to let her go...she wont be happy wif me..i cant even make her smile?!...what kinda boy fwen is dat good for? i'm useless....

if your reading this...
all i wan to say is...u really mean so much to me..i cant explain de feeling when i'm wif .welll all i wan is for u to be happy

23 july o8

2008-07-23T21:04:00.002+08:00

heys...today our 2 months le...so fast sia....even though many many things happens and mostly i'm to blame =P...n i'm sorry for all de things dat happen...i tis few days keep losing my temper duno y...sian lor...i oso duno y...suddenly emo half way den very easy angry...i'm srry 4 those ppl i upset ..especially zac n her...anywae i really hope she is happy wif me...cuz i kinda try my best...xD...

hope we last long =)

21 july o8

2008-07-21T20:58:00.002+08:00

heys...nw feeling very bad...haha...i said smthings dat upset her i think?...i not really purposely de larh...=)...i duno whether make her smile is dat hard..i'm gona try my best in making her happy xD

20 july o8

2008-07-20T20:07:00.002+08:00

YOz...lols..i juz got bck home after spending de whole afternoon slping...morning training kinda tiring i oso duno y sia...seems like my body is weakening...u noe wat...i thinking of her...missing her kinda dreaming of her everytime...anywaes i bought new basketball shoes which kinda cost a bomb but luckily my mom help me pay =P...

lols kinda happy to be wif her...n kinda sorry for saying all those things =P

17 july o8

2008-07-17T21:08:00.001+08:00

lols..today kinda de best day of my life...although in skool was crap but after was not bad xD...lols...nvm u get wat i mean =)...thx 4 everyting..it means alot to me =)...i have no regretZ...xD...

got hit in de eye by de ball...stupid quan hui...get u next time =P

16 july o8

2008-07-16T19:59:00.001+08:00

lols...today is one of de greatest day of my life...=P...heys i'm srry for de tings i said last time...well i wan to take it bck...maybe trying n praying really does works...u shld try it too xD

1o july o8

2008-07-10T20:17:00.002+08:00

heys...u noe wat?...it's like it nver happen...lols...u noe de feeling of trying so hard to get smth but in de end no matter hw much u try she doesn't even care hw i feel...seriously...all she say is dat she dont wan to hurt me...wtf...after lyking sm1 n den ignoring me...hw de fuck u wan me to feel?...izzit dat wat u wan?...some1 hu lyks u, sm1 hu cares for u...sm1 to be wif u...which part of it i didn't do...maybe i didn't...but u nver even gif me a chance...i'm always invisible rite?...trying so hard n ending up wif nth...i juz wan u to be happy n trust me...is it too much to ask for!...i keep on playing basketball to try to not think about stuff...but is really abit too much..i cant really take it ...sometimes i miss toking to u..but no matter hw much i try to tok to u...u wont reply...i still duno y i keep blaming myself when is kinda not my fault...zac's rite...wat for stead when she ignore's u n spends more time wif some1 else?...i duno hw u feel bout me man...u still wan to be fwens wif me?...lols...i dont tink u will...u'll juz contiune to avoid n ignore me...

i juz hope u're happy =) srry for anyting and everyting

09 july 2008

2008-07-09T22:35:00.002+08:00

heys...srry i didnt have time to blog ytd kinda bz cuz i went for my harmonica thing...anywaes today quite slack larh keep on playing basketball..lols...i was trying to destress...maybe i'm facing a lot of probs?...i cant really get her off my mind...keep thinking on hw to keep our relationship going n stuff like dat...i really duno man...i duno wat's on her mind..does she lyk sm1 else or i'm juz a sub...i really hope not...but i'm juz scared larh...de feeling of liking sm1 dat doesn't really lyk u sucks...if u noe wat i mean...haiz...i'm juz trying my best...o yea happy birthday to RONALD!...haha i think i going to slp after my dinner juz came bck from a boring meeting...glad to came bck alive...=P

o7 july o8

2008-07-07T20:04:00.005+08:00

heys...blogging again...today is quite fun =P although onli me, nigel , marcus and brandon...we went to watch movie...went to Plaza Sing round 12 and met hao lun dere...he went wif his fwens for movie so nver join him oso...after eating our lunch we walk to cathy...damn stupid lor...was raining den lyk onli 1 umbrella...den 4 ppl share 1 umbrella...den we juz went for de shw cuz raining nver go lan...den after de shw wanted to meet wif jun yong but he n spiderman dont wan watch so kinda carried on...met wif zhong ming dey all oso...so juz watch tgther lor...anywaes...we watch Hancock and get smart...quite nice larh..i oso realised dat in order for sm1 to be happy...is to stay away frm dat person...haha...weird but if u love a person i'm sure u juz wan to make her happy...=P

o yea last yr was 777...haha

july o6 2oo8

2008-07-06T21:55:00.002+08:00

heys xD...today was quite fun...went to IKEA to help Jerome's uncle buy his furniture for his condo..lols...is my first time going dere...( abit lag)...anywaes de place was so big den after searching for de shelfs n table he wanted..we have to go find collect it...(when u go dere u will noe...) de warehse is like so big larh...den after dat we went to his hse to fix the dinning table n chairs...kinda cool...but is like very easy =P...den kinda stayed dere de whole day...after coming home round 8 i went to play basketball n my blister burst...n i duno y dere is blood...weird i thgt it's supose to be water...

lols...i duno wat happen to me oso larh...i juz feel neglected...or maybe i'm juz invisible xD

july o5 2oo8

2008-07-05T22:24:00.002+08:00

well, i guess i back into blogging since i got nth to do...juz chge my blogskin...and i hope is nice =P...

12/1/o8

2008-01-12T16:36:00.000+08:00

lols..i'm blogging again...juz thinking bout stuff...like...wat will happen when i grow up...haha...n many things could happen rite?...but i hate tiinking of losing someone... a friend, family?... i nver thgt it would be so diff to let go...ppl juz say we will tiink of u always when u die...but...will we always do dat?...wat happens when i die...will ppl rmb me?...haha.. i noe i sacrastic but yea...dat me ^^

9/1/o8

2008-01-09T18:27:00.000+08:00

today damn sad can?...cant go skool comfirm a lot of homework muz complete...fever 40.1...make my head pain like shit...den i cant hear properly...i duno y sia...keep slping...i juz play maple to keep myself occupied...i cant even do work sia...cant walk properly...haiz...mc till thurs onli...den i haven hand in obs form...i dont tiink can go le...super suay

6/1/o8

2008-01-06T22:24:00.000+08:00

yo!!!! got miss me??lols long time nver post le...glad sec 1's enjoy de camp....anywae...my voice sucks...sounds like a duck...i tiink nw i fever..haha..

27/8

2007-08-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

srry for not postin, well..i'm kinda lost nw...my bro gone, n he pang seh me,...i really hope he understand dat i'm srry for today...i nver do much...i can bearly do anytiing wif every1 orderin me around...n i hope dat my hamonica sounds ok..i dont really use tis 1...

18 july

2007-07-18T20:10:00.000+08:00

heys..srry veri long nver post liao =P...life quite gd liao..haha..gt new stead...kz la..quite long liao but tiink a lot ppl noe..haha juz hope we last =)...haha..

2007-07-09T22:22:00.001+08:00

heys...srry nver blog tis few daes..chiong maple =P..haha..anywae..life been quite gd tis few daes...mayb better haha...=)..anywae...i hope mass choir wil contiune as last time..xD...hope more ppl will join..o ya...i try to chge my attitude =P..so sry 4 de ppl i offenced...

4 july

2007-07-04T21:26:00.000+08:00

heys...sian diao lor..haha..nver do hw again...tmr die liao...haha...better improve on my harmonica...99daes to exams??mayb hear wrg =P...haha jy xD

3 july

2007-07-03T23:25:00.000+08:00

sian diao lor todae...totally of form.todae de basic layin oso can miss...kao...den leg wan cramp cant cramp...sian diao lor...den fingers kena ball duno hw sae la...den swollen..wa kao...haiz

2 july

2007-07-02T21:28:00.000+08:00

todae...sian sian stay at home...dont wan go watch movie..den no1 wan pei me go out...juz stay at home lor...but damn lucky la todae...hunt until so many items...1 chicken gif me 2 items...not bad seh...haha...n found sm1 in maple hu is frm HIHS...lols...pure luck...=P...mayb not haha =)

28 june

2007-06-28T22:16:00.000+08:00

heys...srry...very long nver post liao...chiong anime...haha..kinda addicted liao..i tiink =P...homewrk nver finish...i duno hw do...tmr =X...haiz..feel like chiongin maple...2 times wan finish liao..haha...=P...go watch claymore if u nth to do =)...is damn nice xD

24 june

2007-06-24T19:41:00.001+08:00

1 day after my birthday...haha...tomorrow open skool liao...sian diao...homewrk all nver do..=P..haha ...tmr band...duno can take not...haha...xD

22 june

2007-06-22T19:59:00.000+08:00

yoZ!!...lol...duno wat happen to me tis few daes...haiz...keep spacin out...emo-ing..i oso duno y...keep tiinkin n tiinkin n tiinkin...sian diao..tmr birdae liao...xD...but i still dont find a reason to b hapi...either way..i goin to b sad tmr...dont ask y..but is 4 me to noe n 4 guys to find out =P haha

21 june

2007-06-21T18:52:00.000+08:00

sian diao holis goin to end liao...homework!!!nver finish!!!sian diao..haha my birdae at home chiong homewrk...=)...cannot...piang!!!dont hu nver finish oso jy =)...tmr den post barh..bz ...=P

19 june

2007-06-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

heys...srry...long time nver blog le..kinda bz...camp here camp dere...well...i feel dat i chge tis feel wks...believe it or not...haha..anywae..tis is 4 n to Zac...all de best..in wateva u choose noe dat i b dere 4 u =) hope u noe dat...n jy in zhui-ing ...*****...haha...xD...anywae..hope every1 enjoyed de camp even though screw up a bit...but den ya hope u all enjoyed it =)...vice camp cheif...kinda nice to play...haha =)...n ya all de best to me, i nver finish any of my hw...haha =) NiteZ

21/5

2007-05-21T20:08:00.000+08:00

i damn sian...mayb fwens r more important den me..or anybody...i duno...is my decision...dont bother tokin..

17/5

2007-05-17T20:12:00.000+08:00

hey...sry 4 not postin...been kinda bz...well...exams sucks..but at least i past everytiing...lucky =P...detention on wednesday was really shit...wasted 5 hrs...rather slp at home la...but de gd tiing is ...de sci project kinda finished...thx to de ppl wrkin in it =P...mayb i didn't do much srry...anywae...holis cumin hope every1 enjoys dem

11/6

2007-05-11T16:19:00.001+08:00

i duno...last few daes dont feel like postin...anywae...i'm in big trouble...haha...exams fail...ok nearly...den i duno...juz plain useless =)

sian....

2007-05-08T19:55:00.000+08:00

duno la...tis few daes practically suck 4 me...i duno mayb is cuz i chge to much...or is de ppl around me...probably not...well i dont tiink so..haha...i dont tiink u can blame me too, cuz de ppl i am wif onli noe hw to zhi kua..other den marcus n frankie..but seriously...life sux 4 me...did do well in anytiing ..relationship...study...dont tiink anytiing worked out so far...mayb is juz cuz i not gd engh?...mayb is cuz it is not meant to b =)

later got readin...sian

2007-05-05T17:04:00.000+08:00

later goin 4 mass...muz do readin...nearly 4 got =P...haha...muz wear a long sleeve shirt...damn hot lor...anywae wish me all de best =P...juz hope i do alrite..n i pray dat i spend more time 4 n wif God =)

stupid leg cramp

2007-05-04T20:35:00.000+08:00

wth la...damn embarrasing...play basketball den later kena leg cramp...ps frankie i today keep on solo...srry cuz i noe my leg cant take it le...wan end it fast...well...i gues is bao ying lor...haha...tiink is cuz i very long nver play le...

hi

2007-05-04T18:05:00.000+08:00

my new blog duno nice not but tryin out haha..sian marh nth to do